So did you miss me seeing as I haven't written anything for two days!  Really fallen out of doing this on a regular basis.  As I dont seem to have much to write about and I only really write when I'm at work and thats difficult enough when you have Eric Taylor breathing down your neck

I had really had enough of the snide comments and everything on Tuesday, so yesterday took the day off! Called in sick  Lazed around in bed, had a soak in the tub, went and collected my stuff from the post office.  Then went into Manchester had a coffee and resisted the chocolate cake!  Went into Addecco to start seeing about a new job with better pay!  Walked Gadget around a dodgy looking park then went home and tried to relax for the rest of the evening.

Garys having problems with a removal van due to the fact all the non-blood relatives are a waste of space.  Marcus quit his job where he would of been able to borrow a van for Gary's move.  If it was me I would of personally waited the 1/2 weeks THEN quit! But then Marcus didnt come across as the brightest spark  ugh I could bloody punch him! I asked Gary if he was still helping him move and he said he wasnt which is a good thing cos I would of slapped him one!

I'm sure there is more I could talk about... But my lower half is aching and I gotta think about packing for tomorrow... God I hate packing I always take WAY to much!!

Right well another boring short crappy diary entry for moi! See ya

I know I'm pathetic, trying to get people to tag my board but hell who I am kidding this journal isnt interesting in the slightest  its dull dull dull! But whoever is out there I will carry on boring you to death  Bwaahahahaha!

Didnt do much this weekend, my plan to seduce my boyfriend  didnt exactly go to plan as we were both exhausted by the time he got to mine on friday! Went to see his flat on Saturday, my god whoeva lives there now needs to tidy.  Tripped over some dumbbells (or however its spelt)  It was quite hard to picture what it would look like with all of Garys stuff in it.  Neater I expect as I'll probably end up tidying up out of boredom or my random urges to clean. Like yesterdays urge to finally sort out my paper work and bills.  Didnt know I had so many random ISA or Account statements.  FK knows where the rest disappeared to!

Took Gadget to the groomers over in Stockport! What was once a reasonably hairy dog its now very trimmed! I mean she must of removed about 3/4ths of his fur! She took his little fringy ear hair as well  trimmed his face right down! Chopped all his excess bum fluff off now, wished she'd left him a little dignity as you can see his little balls wiggling as he walks! Not a nice sight!   He does look smarter though, but Gadget just isnt a smart looking dog he's meant to look scruffy! Oh well furgrows! I think the experience may of traumatized him a little, especially as he is not a big fan of anything mechnically and noisy, and chances are she used electric trimmer and a hair dryer on him  I mean this is the dog whose scared of the ironing board!!! He slept for most of the evening on Saturday and he seems fine now.

Didnt go to Nim's party, it didnt start till gone 9pm which is late and also Nim was the only person I would know. I guess Gary thought that that would make it easier for him if I didnt really know anyone either but I know from previous experience it just ends up boring.  Also Nim's party tend to for everyone to end up smoking dope which neither of us is into.  I wouldnt of minded going but with noone else there who I knew I couldnt work up the energy to go.  Then again maybe their would of been people I knew... Who knows! Too late now.  Spent the evening laughing at these pet websites where you can buy the most ridiculous stuff for your dog! 

http://www.petlondon.com/ if u want a laugh! Though sad as it is I wouldnt mind one of the doggy rain coats for Gadget as he hates getting wet!

 HEY ITS GADGET!!! Before he had his hair cut! Hehehe

Didnt do much Sunday, because I wasnt feeling to good.  Did my laundry went home watched TV and watched one of the films I had ordered but hadnt got round to watching yet! So put on Underworld.  Its an ok movie nothing special, cant get over how skinny Kate Beckinsale is  Its just not fair.

Going on a diet this week! NO crap food! No crisps, chocolate or anything! Having a fish and rice week for dinner and gonna try and get some exercise in as well, if it kills me!

TFI FRIDAY

Yup I am sooooooooo glad its friday!!! Not that I'm happy or anything...

Oooooo Eric nearly caught me then!!!  always have to suddenly close or shrink stuff down when he comes in.  Found me looking at my emails today and asked what I'd bought off of ebay, cheeky sod reading my emails over shoulder! He couldnt really say anything though because it was before 9am and I technically dont start before then because its not like he's going to let me out before 5pm or after if he suddenly gets going.

Its like he wants to make sure he drains every last bit of life force from out of me into his stupid company so that he's getting his moneys worth! Well damn! He sure as hell is seeing as I'm only on £11,000 grand a year when I could be elsewhere earning over £12,000.  Somethings gotta change and soon cos I'm struggling here, and now I desperately want a Pink Mini Ipod...

I know I've recently bought a new CD Discman, but the Ipod is so pink and so tiny! and going at bout £179!!!  Found a few on Ebay cheaper, some were going for £50 but thats the beginning price, come the end of the Auction they'll be well over £150!!!

If I did get one, I'd give my mum my new discman for when she's in the car to play cd's on, because she has the cd adaptor which I bought waaaaaaaay back in the first of Uni for our trips up and down the motorway.  Should probably buy a new one of those soon, not sure what the lifespan is of them.

GAWWY'S COMING TONIGHT!!! Literally in both ways  If anyone has come over from his journal then you would have read his practically x-rated entry from last night...  so yes I am the hotter than hot g/f with a great arse! He knows how to make me feel good about myself  Though me send naughty texts...  never....  hehehe ok then maybe i sent a few... hehe

Plans for the weekend... Lets see, some sorting out of Gary to do hehe  we've got an appointment to see his new flat tomorrow at half 11, then a toodle over to Stockport to take Gadget for his first ever grooming session  should be interesting... Especially as Gadgets HATES being brushed or groomed of any kind! May take his muzzle just incase! Also I dread to think how slippery he gets when wet, could be a chase and half lol  So not sticking around to watch though if I taped it I could earn a lot lol

Nowt much else planned for the weekend, got no money till next week, though technically that just clears my overdraft (well I hope it is cos I have no idea where I stand at the moment and really dont wanna know). But on £750 (after tax) a month I'm pretty sure I'm screwed! So no Pink Mini Ipod for a while  Life sux

Hour till lunch, got some lush ham on granury rolls, yoghurt, banana, oh cant forget the salt and vineger rice cakes

 WHERE'S ALL THE DAMN CHOCOLATE!!!

Oh wait, despite spending like £18 I didnt buy any  damn my shopping sux! Bought loads of freezer food... Is there a way I can tell Gary without actually telling him..

WHY DOES NOONE EVA TAG MY BOARD?? Must be some people out there who wanna tag it... pwease...

I cant stand it anymore!!! I hate hate hate my working life, this place is boring, i can only just about get up in the morning to come into work.  This morning I was so tired, I just didnt want to get up, and eventually managed to drag myself out of bed around half past 7.  Almost didnt make it out on time because I was lying on my bed almost falling back asleep despite being fully dressed and ready to go

 Gawd my life is boring without chocolate!!  Had a strange craving for boiled egg earlier, would have it for dinner tonight but no eggs,  DOH!  Think I may have to go to Tesco, cos I have no idea what to feed Gary over the weekend, because the fridge is very bare! Though never sure what to feed Gary at the weekends anyway  I have a small list of what I cook that he eats:

• Macaroni cheese
• cheesey potatoes
• gammon
• sausages
• mash potatoe
• burgers (without onion essence)
• Ice cream
• Ham and cheese sandwiches
• Chocolate muffins

And that is all I can think of for now... Either way will have to go to Tesco to pick up some essentials because I'm finding it hard to eat.  Ending up having my spinach and ricotta cannaloni, but thats because I found out you can cook it from frozen! Woohoo!  So shoved that in the oven, had a bath watched tv then had my dinner, sorted (why is that thumb green???)

Nowt much to do tonight, gotta tidy my room, run the hoover around. Oooooooooooo  got a lot of washing up to do! Not fun! Walk the mutt, though that could possibly wait till tomorrow if i'm feeling cruel

My life is so dull, i have nothing else to talk about! Gary's been banned from the net at the Marriott, personally who gives a  because Gary's leaving soon! So up thiers! Sound like a bunch of nazi's the way they run that place and their not good enough for my Gawwy

Right I'm outta here, sounds dubious me being the only one typing on the lunch break!

While the cats away the mice shall play! Or Kate will bring Gadget to work  better than leaving him by himself all the time! He cried when i left yesterday, could hear as I walked down the street

Dont really have much to say... Last night was a bit dull, got home ate a cheese and bacon slice, walked Gadget.  We went past Gary's flat, cant wait for him to actually move in  and him being like 5 minutes round the corner!!!  hehehe Oh the possibilties...  

Went on to the internet, put my face wash up for sale on ebay, tried to play this  game I downloaded at work at home but yahoo wouldnt let me download them  dont know if it was yahoo or my computer.  Probably my computer as its been playing up!

Ok may come back to writing this as I dont really have much to say...

Yup Sarah's back! So i'm back to doing even less work than yesterday and yesterday there was nowt to do!!  Filed my nails, did a few invoices and that was about it!

Very tired today, I didnt stay up too late last night but Gary kept me chatting for a while, naughty Gawwy lol  I miss him, miss him so much...  I bought him a present today... Not saying what though, but its something that he REALLY wants and will mean a lot to him!!

Selling my first item on Ebay! All very scary.  Decided to sell my copies of the Vampire Diaries I bought off of Ebay a few weeks back.  I've read them now so not really gonna read them again, so if anyone's interested the starting bid is £1 but you can buy now for £6, which makes it £2 a book which aint bad! Might try selling a bottle of unused Botanics facewash as well.  Bought it when I first met Gary because it was buy 1 get 1 free and never used it because I switched to my Lush facial wash. Something to think about... Not sure what else I can sell though, I'm so stupidly attached to junk  Will have a rummage and see what I can find.  Best place to look will be back in Dorset!!

ARGH!!! I wanna be with Gary!!! Right here right now! Over the desk or under it hehe...

Got to find a new job or something, not sure I can keep this up at Carr's! I'm so bored, most days I can just about bear Eric, but others its like...

 GO AWAY YOU HORRIBLE HORRIBLE SMALL SMELLY MAN

Sarah I can just about deal with but she's leaving in a months time and Bob I love Bob he's good like the father my dad should be! When he's not being a prat (my dad not Bob).  I'm just not sure what I wanna do, i'm not in a finacial position to go 'chase my dream' as Gary says, but then again not sure what my dream is.  I know I want to travel but Garys more of a settle down and get on with work kinda guy than lets roam round the world for however long.  And I'm not entirely sure I want to live in Britain for the rest of my life, I wanna go live in America or somewhere in Europe, maybe even the Far East!  I know I want to go to New Zealand just how the hell do I get there especially with minus nothing funds! and working at Carr's and my spending doesnt make it easy to save up money.  If i had  a better paying job I'd wipe my credit card and up the amount i put into my account each week or month! If i put like £100 a month into my savings I'd have well over a grand by the end of a year! I just dont know... the fact is the most important things in my life at the moment are Gary and Gadget and I dont think either of them will travel well. Who knows, because for now I'm stuck at Carr's wasting my life away...

Going to write this in smaller font getting fed up of the HUGE font.

Anyway I am knackered! Rob kept me up till gone half past 11 with tutorials on Imusic and Bittorrent downloads, then when we finally went to go to bed he wouldnt stop joking about! GAH!

Its been a long long weekend, Friday Rob finally arrived about 8pm, because of his train being delayed outside of Manchester for an hour, he demanded we went out for a drink when he arrived and after he had dinner, so dragged myself to the pub, didnt leave till gone midnight and we didnt go to bed till 1/1.30am  we then had to be up at 5am to get up and get going for Alton Towers.

Oh that trip was fun not! 1 taxi, 2 trains and 2 buses! Set off at 6am got there going on 11am! Which is so very wrong! But hey. Practically walked into Alton Towers because of having pre-booked our tickets, so doing that again!!!

Will now tell you the rides we went on using smiliees to show how i enjoyed them:

 - Good ride I enjoyed it,  - Bit scary but fun! - WAY to scary for my liking!

Blackhole -

Oblivion -

Enterprise -

Submission -  (Chickened out, so didnt sound safe!!!)

Teacups -

River Rapids -

Duel / Ghostride -   IN YOUR FACE ROB & GARY! Whipped yours arses! My score 33800

Corkscrew -  x2

Also rinsed a load of money on games, like the Dino Derby which was cool and some carni games! Rob won me a weird bear type thing which we lovingly named Inbred Bear  Gary won me a big pink Carebear and between me and Gary we won a dino stuffed toy.  It was cool, I'm never one of those girls who gets toys won for her and I was happy with the one, but i got 3!! They were a bugger to carry about mind!

Overall we has a fun day! Bought my mum a photo of all 3 of us on the River Rapids and Matt some marshmallow.  Found out Garys a but pissed at me and Rob because we were making fun of him after we saw the Oblivion photos.  He was completely expressionless while everyone else was screaming their heads off orin my case, trying to turn myself into a small ball with my eyes screwed shut so i wouldnt have to see anything.  I know we went on a bout it but too be honest I was just impressed! I mean wot a man not to be screaming his head off! Also it was just a way to get Gary into our jokes and everything didnt want to piss him off...  I loved being able to clutch to him on rides and everything, not sure he enjoyed me screeching in his ear though.  He's great to cling to he's so solid and warm...

I did kinda ruin the end of the day though, was tired and falling asleep on the bus, when we got back got some food from the burger place.  Having my hands full I put it in my bag all wrapped up with the opening facing upwards.  Got home and found burger all over my bag.  I just felt like crying, I was hot, sweaty, filthy, exhausted and just wanted something hot to eat.  End up throwing the burger on to the dogs dinner bowl, chucking my bag in the bin and storming out into the bathroom.  Where i had a bath.

All I wanted was for Gary to come after me, but he was probably right I would of snapped at him, but was lying in the tub grumbling to myself wondering why neither of them had bothered to come and check or if they had realised i was in the bath that i hadnt taken a towel with me. In the end rob came and knocked on the door, bought me a towel.  Rob had taken the post round and Gary had cleaned my bag and they had put away the bags and stuff and Gary had saved me his burger.  He said he didnt want it but Rob said he saved it, not sure which because the guy did put cheese on it which would of put Gary off, but then he would of saved his burger for me becos he had chips to eat as well... I dont know either way it was good of him xxx I was just so fed up when I went into the bathroom, I'd spent the week running around trying to get stuff sorted and I was worried that Rob or Gary wouldnt enjoy themselves and the trains were a total pain and despite having a really good day getting home to find my dinner had been ruined just upset me after a hard week.  It was a good day though, Rob and Gary got to know each other a bit better and also get on after my strope.

Sunday we hardly did anything! Didnt crawl out of bed till late, because we were tired and ached.  Me and Gary went to the laundrette while Rob played on my computer.  Being at the laundrette was unusally fun... Hehe Gary knows wot i mean  it was hard keeping our hands to ourselves all weekend, and we soooooo didnt manage to

We also went to the All you can eat chinese, which I knew was a bad idea because Gary probably wouldnt like anything.  Which doesnt annoy me, just worries me because I want to make sure he's eaten enough and everything but the only time I can go is when Rob or mum is here.  So I'd either have to send Gary home early which would suck or take him along.  He did try stuff, couldnt understand why he didnt like it but he says it tasted like crap which i guess if you've never eaten it before and your not sure then maybe it would.  Luckily they did chips and chicken.  Feel bad because I had to ask if he would halves with me because I stupidly told rob I'd pay for him  dont know why I do that... I feel bad because Gary had to pay like £15 but then the day before he did say he'd pay for my dinner on sunday but still seeing as he didnt like it... But i would of have been left with nothing and instead we were left with little! I gotta stop treating Rob

I did have a good weekend, and if anything I love Gary even more than before...  as well find as him horny as hell! Man he looked fine this weekend

Did have a whole huge rant about how crappy my job was because I had nothing to do but lost it cos Bravenet was playing up!

Anyway I shant moan now, well not for a little while...  Have spent most of the morning taking macro pictures of carbon fibre fabric!  Ok your probably thinking, not the most interesting thing in the world to take piccies of, but hey its better than sitting at my desk pretending to be sorting through paper work

Rob should be on the train now, if not earlier so its all go go go for Alton Towers.  Think he wants to go out tonight for a few  so better stay reasonably sober  seeing as we're probably going to have to get up at like 6am! I dont think I told him that though....

Eric's back with his chips and curry <--- hehehe gross little smilee! Though the thought of chips is damned tempting! I had a nice BLT sandwich from the shop, my jaffa cakes and now my yoghurt.

Got to go to Tesco's after work, pick up some snacks for the trip tomorrow.  I think Garys going to get some of his own seeing as I'd probably just get stuff he hated

I was awful to him last night... I know he hates me even mentioning Paul let alone knowing the fact the w@nk£r called me the other day.  Guess its hard for him to believe that Paul really is in the past for me, I wouldnt want to go there.  I think Paul's got a new g/f now anyway, all I can say is poor poor girl! If I was really still under Pauls thumb then when he rang Monday?/Tuesday? I would of spoken to him but I really couldnt be bothered.  It's funny told my new mate Chris where to find a picture of Paul and he told me that I should never get back with him for the fact he's an ugly git! and I need someone better looking than that.  That made me laugh, Paul always thought he was some kind of god doing me a favour when in fact it was me people fancied not him

 In your face PAUL

I got my Gary now, whose been a shining light in my dark little life  when i'm with him noone else in the world but him matters, and even though he doesnt think it, I do think myself better looking and everything (despite the fact I havent ANY lost weight ) because of him making me feel so good about myself

Mum rang last night, she's down in the dumps again and too be honest I'm sick of it.  She was crying this time because she doesnt know wot to do with my Nan and Grandads stuff and tried talking to Dad about it.  Personally I dont know why she even bothered.  I say bin it or sell it! If all he's going to do is give her abuse then hell just get rid of it!  I know what my dads like, i've heard him on the phone to my mum even though he doesnt know I have and he's foul! Then he goes to Rob and plays the your mums gone nuts again card and Rob believes him  I hate this sick of being stuck in the middle... It just made me last night want to hit out, punch someone really hard but of course bit hard when your by yourlonesome.  So sat and sang along Evanescense and No Doubt...

ANYWAY happy face  because Rob will be here in like 5 hours! and I'll see Gawwy tomorrow  

Morning has been ok so far, except for the worlds most irritating fax from BRIAN the our USA agent or PILLOCK as I like to call him!

I dont know how he manages to run his own bloody business, last week we got this order from him.  Total gobblydeegook! We have to change all the prices from £ to $, then do some calculation that he's given us to work out his prices.  Then change linear metres to linear yards again with his calculation!  It took me and Sarah an hour to work out his order in the end, for him to call us Monday to say we'd gone wrong but because Sarah was not there wouldnt tell me.  He then had all of Tuesday to ring or fax us, but did he, NO!  Sent out his order Wednesday thinking hey we went over his figures again and it all seemed right.  I then get into work this morning to find a fax saying we'd done his invoice all wrong and he was going to be charged more expensive export tax or something. 

 WELL WHY DIDNT HE RING TUESDAY AND TELL US TO FIX IT!!!  

Anyway I sent him back a semi sh!tty fax, which was polite and very restrained I think! But hey he'll probably call up later and have a go at me, well he can go get stuffed!

Rant over! Well till he rings or faxes back I guess.  Not sure what the time is over in California.

I'm hungry, got 20 minutes till lunch  trying to be good and eat all my fruit before snacking on any of my biscuits or rice cakes.  Got another ham sandwich on dodgy stay-fresh bread, jaffa cakes yum!!! and my tesco cheapo low fat yoghurt.  God my life is exciting.

Oooo I booked the Alton Towers tickets! Cost me £45 going through Last Minute.com instead of £75.  One hell of a saving I think!  Thats like a saving of £30!!!   Gary doesnt know but I'm not going to let him pay for his ticket, its a treat on me  I know he wont except it, but hey if he wants to buy me stuff during saturday like drinks and stuff up to him!  I owe him loads anyway though he says I dont really.

On me lunch FINALLY. Grotty ham sarny, yum  Eric's gone off into Stockport, but i expect he'll back in a minute to come keep an eye on me.  God its like working with Big Brother.  He's spent most of the morning chucking me stuff to do so i'm not sat around which is fine by me! I mean if I do all the stuff I want on the net during the day, no point me having it at night.  Spent most of last night chatting, I did take Gadget for a walk though, a good decent walk as well.  All the way up past the Assembly then back down to Barlow Moor Road then over to Old Landsdowne Road, past Garys soon to be flat and then home, I was bloody knackered and it cost me a far whack cos I rang me mum up and spoke to her for most of the trip.

Turns out the guy who was going to rent her a flat as gone and rented it to someone else, BASTARD!!  So she's all upset again, I dont know wot do, not much I can do.  She'll just have to go find another place, hope she does I hate ringing her up to find she's been crying and then listen to her rant on about Dad and Stella.  Yes I know she hates them, yes their total *£$^"*! But going on about how they act and how its their fault isnt going to get her into a new place.  Sometimes you just have to shut up and get on with it, which she has been trying to do but I think she's gotten fed up with it all now.

Anyway only 4 and half more hours before I finish work  then got to go home, eat something quick, walk Yorkie G and start a mass tidy up on the flat before Rob arrives tomorrow evening.

Yay another exciting fun packed day @ work! If you believe that you'll believe anything!!  Only quarter to 9 and I have nothing to do

Started this entry at 9:45, its now 10.25 so maybe I do have some stuff to do...  Got a splitting headache, so didnt want to get up this morning, but then I never want to get up ANY morning.  I was so cosy wrapped up in my woolly throw blanket

Garys said he wants to paint his new flat purple... Oooo the possibilties!!!  Cant do a dark purple cos then it would make his flat look small, but anything going on lilac would be a bit girly but then mum painted Matts room a purple which wasnt too bad i guess but then she did the sideboards and stuff a brown.  Maybe we could do Gary's flat a nice coffee colour or something that'd suit him, got to be careful or it might end up looking literally like poop!

Could see this being a long entry, keep adding to it when I get a chance throughout the morning.  Got to be careful though because of my boss might catch me on here and get in a sh!t if he finds me on the net.  Caught me on monday and went "That doesnt look like work" luckily it was only 5 minutes before lunch so he couldnt really say anything else.

Supposed to be taking Rob & Gary to Alton Towers this weekend, weather isnt looking good though  typical after we had the hottest weekend ever last week.  I dont know if I should just go ahead and get the tickets or not.... Whys life so difficult sometimes!!!

Going to sign off for a little while, maybe write somemore later.

<--- ME!!! lol